A Thread For The Budding Poets/writers Etc..

[jacksondonut]

Broken Dreams

Those broken dreams
Such shattered hopes
Sad tears in streams
Like fraying ropes
With pain and fear
And her innocence lost
No one can hear
So what’s the cost?
Her broken dreams
With no going back
A nightmare it seems
On this one-way track
She’s lost forever
In this tragic life
Trust? No never!
Slow cuts with a knife
Unable to talk
She uses her pain
Wants to reach out
And live again
But she shuts out this world
And closing the door
Her eyes are blank
Can’t take any more
She slowly turns the key
In the lock
She sits on her bed
And looks at the clock
At twenty to ten
She lies on the bed
Says a last prayer
Which sticks in her head
When broken dreams
Were all she saw
This life meant nothing
And there was no more
She ended it all
To stop her pain
So she could be free
No more insane

[jacksondonut]

The Waiting Game

Those long empty nights when I am alone
I stare out the window I stare at the phone
Watching each cloud passing the moon
Counting the stars by myself in this room
The cool wind that blows dries quickly my tears
I hold on to each breath and swallow the fears
Eyes of dark glass reflecting each thought
Hands feel so cold, heart feels so fraught
When I am alone in my heart in my head
I wait for the phone but tonight it seems dead
This day seems so long, will it ever end?
Forever I’ll wait for you my dear friend
Filling the time as best as I can
I wait here in love I wait for my man

[jacksondonut]

The End of My Rainbow


Like bloodied meat
Dark and raw
On a butcher’s slab
My heart, my core
Battered, bleeding
My broken heart
Such torment agony
Torn apart
Stop the hurt
Death’s looking good
Of this poor soul
That’s turned to wood
Stick in the knife
All things are bared
Would I feel it?
Would I have cared?
From the glorious sun
To the marrow of my bone
Tarnished, blackened
Turned to stone
Where did joy go?
Brief, fleeting and rare
Like a fading rainbow
It soon wasn’t there
This must be love
Turned inside out
My Heart on a slab
My life in doubt
At the end of my rainbow
The butcher will wait
My love it lies bleeding
At heaven’s gate

[jacksondonut]

A Noisy Kind of Silence

A noisy kind of silence
Sits inside my mind and breathes
As though a wind is kicking up
A pile of fallen leaves
Empty words and silences
Lie dormant and unsaid
Like an empty tea-cup
That’s on your side of my bed
Outside of me I feel no pain
No nothing there at all
Just numb, blind and deaf today
I hide behind this wall
Surrounded by the noise of life
Running circles in my mind
Scattered pictures of your face
Memories that I should hide
The chilly morning wind that blows
Stirs shadows of the past
Frozen in a moment
Times remembered in the dark
Voices, music, words and songs
All take me to a place
Of memories of us back then
Lines etched upon your face
The years and fears are carved in flesh
Tell stories of love lost
With empty eyes and lonely soul
With this love it was the cost
Hearing all those voices
It penetrates and stings
The silences and solitude
This bird with broken wings
A crazy kind of silence
Sits heavy in my heart
Each laboured breath I struggle with
A deadly poison dart
Wading through the endless days
I harbour tears unshed
Memories lie withering
Hold back the words unsaid
With blurring thoughts and stinging eyes
And pain that knows no end
I take each breath and walk each step
All my love to you I send
With heavy heart I start each day
And hope this ache will go
My frozen tears on a winters’ day
Like bloodstains in the snow

[jacksondonut]

A Million Thoughts

I shared with you a million thoughts
As the words I could not speak
Hidden within the walls of my heart
Behind the barricade of thorns and broken glass
Sharing a lonely desolate path
You walked with me awhile
But the time and place were wrong
In another lifetime you said
If things were different you said
All the reasons why not
Not all the reasons why
And all I needed to say
Then stuck in my throat
For then I knew it was too late for us
Words trapped forever unspoken
And all the hurt and all the pain
Drowned in silent tears
As you walked away intact
Leaving nothing but a shell
Blowing quietly in the wind
And a million thoughts
I can never speak aloud

[jacksondonut]

Just a quote today...

You are the reason I open my eyes in the morning
The reason I remember to breathe
Without you
Life is not Life
Without you
I would simply cease to be

June 2007

[Lory]

A Million Thoughts

~Snip~

That brought a lump to my throat!

[bigdjiver]

Nowhere to go
===========

You caught me
like a well written tune
brightened my life
like a sunny afternoon
before the chorus
I was hooked all too soon
and darling
I had to dance with you

You took me
on a magical ride
caught in the music
with you by my side
the smile on my heart
had nowhere to hide
and darling
I had to dance with you

Why the melody ended
I'm never going to know
was I dancing to fast
or singing too slow
alone on the floor
with nowhere to go
and wishing
I was dancing with you.

All rights reserved

[jacksondonut]

Nowhere to go
===========
=All rights reserved

Thanks for that bigdjiver... is nice to hear from you again..

[jacksondonut]

Guess who is awake at 3.00am again in the mornings...


This is my Titanic...

I jump
I have left the safety of my ship
It is sinking, I can see that
No longer safe, no longer indestructible
I chose to jump ship
Treading water
The Life-Raft is close in this treacherous sea
But each time I think I am safe
Or I try to climb aboard, the waves tip me off
I feel I am slowly drowning
I am no longer safe
I see the sharks in the moonlight
In the distance waiting; waiting
My life-belt barely keeps me afloat now
Just keeping my head above water
Just keeping me alive
Stopping me from going under
Stopping me from slipping away
Fingers aching and stiff from holding on
Heart aching too
Weary, terrified and frozen to my bones
To my heart
I see the fear around me
And decide to take a chance

I close my eyes and pray

I let go
I stop fighting

The sea gently carries me away
I become quiet
Floating

In the distance I see a light
It slowly moves towards me

And I let go
I don’t struggle anymore
I know I am safe

16/17.08.2007

[Rogboy]

I wrote this 4 yrs ago when I split from my partner and began to see my son at weekends :

I see my Son every Weekend. This is how I feel when I speak to him, see him and when I say goodbye. But perhaps no words can really convey that.

Aortic Rubble

Monday rebuilding begins
fragments bonded together by a voice
heard every evening
talking about nothing
Tellytubbies, nursery, liking broccoli

Tuesday progress is slow
you tell me swimming was fun
mama got wet
splash splashy splash!

Wednesday the structure takes shape
Nursery day
all clap hands!
each minute quickens healing
each word uttered brings our time closer

Thursday almost done
crawling walls in my head
pacing, pacing
screaming for release

Friday all is complete
I see you and the touch paper is lit
holding you and electric flows
feel life once more

Saturday
My Day
parks and swings
alphabet spaghetti and jigsaws
Who’s been eating my porridge?
Nighty night little man

Sunday and the cracks appear
‘bye-bye daddy’
a heart–shape building crumbles
I exist but do not feel
Monday rebuilding begins

[jacksondonut]

FOOL?

Am I ‘fool to think it’s over’?
That line I’ve heard before
Am I fool still loving you?
As you walk out of the door
I watch your face and read your eyes
Just try and wonder why
I keep the faith and have a hope
That how I feel will never die

Is it wrong to want somebody
So much you’d pay a ‘price’?
Of lonely years spent all alone
In my bed that feels as cold as ice
Foolish dreams of an innocent heart
That one day you could be
The one ive always dreamed of
Should I Wait forever?

....Maybe

[jacksondonut]

SEPTEMBER

What had you given me at the end of this year?
Well, you saw all my pain and shared all my fear
You opened my eyes to a beautiful world
And buried my hurt with a kind and wise word

You took me to places that I’d never been
And showed me that love was all that it seemed
A pure joy that bubbled and rose like the sea
Just gave me your smile, said that you wanted me

I never wanted much more than your time
More precious than diamonds in the deepest dark mine
And that it was enough and that I’m quite sure
You gave me your best and I couldn’t want more

You gave me such peace in my body and soul
Just holding my hand you broke thru’ the wall
With your blinding faith, understanding of me
Your truth and your love were totally free

You gave me much more than I ever asked for
A year of your life and the key to a door
And all I can give you as you give me that smile
Is my love for free til that very last mile

So Thank-You, for giving me your time you see
You are all I’d want for eternity
You wanted to give me much more :but Why?
Your gave me your love and it helped me survive

Twelve months has flown by since last September
And sharing that year I will always remember
You opened my eyes and made my heart sing
I think your time was really quite something!

You made me so happy and shared such emotion
You filled all my skies like the deepest dark ocean
You truly did everything a lover could do
And that’s why I know, I truly love you

[Vegetable]

My poem, no name 2 it im new 2 writing poems


He sat there eagerly, with the light slightly dimmed, with crimson red rose petals scattered upon the floor, music quietly playing in the background, he begins to hear the faint sound of her delicate footsteps as she begins to approach the door, as the door handle starts to move, his heart begins to race the closer she approaches the louder his heart beats, the door opens and he cant hold his lust for her any more, he stands and begins to approach, he puts his arm upon her shoulder gently pulls her towards him and he can feel her warm breath upon his face, he firmly pushes his lips against hers, as he moves his body closer, she reaches her arm around his back slowly moving it up along his back as he begins to shiver, he begins to feel a cold rush, as the blunt kitchen knife tears through his tender skin the warm blood runs down her arm, a slight felling of sorrow fills her body for a man she once loved, a faint smile as she leaves his body draped in blood on the silk that covers the bed, where she spent nights in his arms then looking at the bed begins to prove her anger as she lashes out reaching for picture of her in his arm, the glass smashes as if in slow motion begins to hit the floor, leaving the room she trips over the table, the burning candle falls onto the bed where he lies silently, she walks down the cold dark streets to look back to see the flames rushing into the sky, sheds one last tear turns towards the darkness of her soul and walks off into the night...

[bigdjiver]

Version 2 of a song written in 2003

Someone called 911
------------------

Someone called 911
the sheriff came with his gun
he blew the bad guy all to hell
(bass) but he shot me as well

a the nurse who tends my wounds
now lives in my best rooms
she moved in, with the Doc
(bass) He gets nursing,all around the clock
Hey there nursey, what about my wounds
(both) 911 is strictly for the loons

and the man who came to fix the door
is living on my second floor
he says that he really likes view
(bass) his wife and kids, they like it too
Oh don't call 911, whatever you may do

They will protect me, thats what they say
The sheriff and his deputies have all come to stay
except when there's trouble, they're forever near
(bass) but | don't want them here
They will protect me, thats what they say
(bass) I wish they'd go away
(Both) Oh we wish they'd go away.

David F. Cox
All rights reserved

[jacksondonut]

Autumn

Watching the dawn its blinding skies
A squirrel leaps before my eyes
The autumn leaves so gently fall
And slowly build a golden wall
As summer cools and slowly dies
So winter comes a dark surprise
Chill winds that swirl and idly blow
The faintest tang, the smell of snow
Remind me of my youth, the days
Of dreams and hopes, a misty haze
Life’s never-ending ebb and flow
Watching the world, I change and grow
Above the clouds the bleakest sun
Now weak as summers on the run
The autumn rears its’ knowing head
As flowers die, laid in their bed
Rain starts to fall and as they drown
They curl and wither on the ground
And as this world is slow to turn
We all look back and quietly yearn
To feel the sun upon our skin
Remembering the warmth within
We watch the leaves turn red and gold
And shiver as our bones get cold

[under par]

My mate's a real go getter,
but he really should have known better.
than to create a new post,
and circulate to most,
how join his little vendetta.

[jacksondonut]

Silent Tears

I hear the sound of silent tears
I look but cannot see
I hear their sound and feel them
They come from inside me!
I look around to find the source
I can’t believe I’m shaking
They feel just like a raging river
In a nightmare of my making
A constant stream so blinding
A flood from deep inside
I cannot lose my heart again
I cannot lose my pride
The silent tears that well up
From the bottom of my soul
Leave pools of disillusioned dreams
A life without a goal
I have to believe that I can stop
This waterfall of tears
To know that I am whole again
And haven’t wasted years
To fall in love and lose that love
Could make me sink and drown
But I CAN fight with all my strength
I’m out but won’t be down!

[jacksondonut]

havent posted anything for a while...


Confusion


Broken Damaged Shattered
Twisted Bent and Torn
Savaged Ripped and Battered
Fallen Crushed Forlorn

Shaken Bruised Tattered
Tormented Sad and Sore
Screaming Shouting Crying
Shaking Shrivelled Raw


Darker shadows in the night
Rain without an end
The narrow twisted uphill road
No light around the bend


Forgotten Frozen Aching
Desperate Dark and Blue
Lonely Sad and Hurting
My heart since I lost you

[jacksondonut]

... lets just say Ive picked up my pen again..

Untitled... 16.8.08


I havent stopped crying,
.....yet,
on the inside
on the outside
and I havent stopped wanting you
.....yet

I stare at the blank walls
they stare back

I havent stopped seeing you
.........yet,
on the inside
on the outside
of my mind
just you in all your beauty
not yet

The walls close in around me
Im just a prisoner here

I havent stopped loving you
.........yet,
one day
maybe
the pain will be gone
and so will you
but not just yet........